Embracing Darkness and Sharing My Light

As a kid, all I ever wanted to be was a musician. I had taken a few piano and guitar lessons growing up but I sucked at playing them both, so I never pursued it. I always remained passionate about music and wanted so badly to express myself creatively through music. I believed I lacked the necessary natural talent to play an instrument. I was wrong. I just lacked the necessary belief in myself.

I know this isn’t the best performance but I was exhausted, take #144 and I couldn’t play a whole song through on the guitar without a hundred f-ups so this is what you get, three chords on the uke. The point is that this is me expressing myself fully and authentically without the fear of judgement or ridicule and there is no better feeling on Earth.

Everyone deserves to feel so good in their own skin. I remember what it felt like to hate myself and my life. I remember tears, sleepless nights, therapy, drugs, shitty relationships and just the utter feeling of 'what's the point'. I hope I can inspire my reader to do something kind for themselves, maybe something you’ve always wanted to do but self-limiting thinking stopped you from trying or caused you to quit when things got hard. You have natural gifts waiting to be found and developed. You are a gift to the world because the world only has one You in it. (...So let your Light shine!)

I’ve been on a the past several years but as I write this, I am reminded that I have been in training for this my whole life. Those who know me know I have experienced a lot of “life” in my 41 years here on Earth. For those who don’t know me as well, my resume includes battling drug addiction most my life, homelessness, domestic violence, depression, anxiety, miscarriage, unemployment, divorced single mom plus some ‘really personal stuff I can’t mention here’. I chose a difficult path in life not because I’m a glutton for punishment but because it provided me a profound understanding of what darkness is and how to transmute this energy. I can teach anyone how to be a professional demon slayer – part of my mission and vision.

 I’m sharing this with all of you as a gift with a message – We are living in dark and uncertain times and many are suffering now and becoming discontented. This is a time of great change and transformation upon the Earth which means there is great change and transformation happening within each of us. There is a mass awakening happening on the planet right now – a massive shift in the collective consciousness of humanity. We are ascending the lower vibrational frequencies of 3D Earth into 5D New Earth Consciousness – think second Renaissance.

This can be a turbulent transition for some that aren’t aware of the energies at play. For others, it can be joyful and expansive and we can consciously co-create the experiences we wish to have in life. We can hang on to the dead and dying or we can embrace change. Transition is not something to be feared.

We are embarking on a new way of life and a new way of experiencing the world. Each of us has the power to create worlds individually, think about what we can create together collectively. 

Thank you for being you. I love you. Love Light Blessings. You are beautiful and special. You are loved. You are Divine Light. Thank you for bringing your uniqueness into my life. I appreciate you for who you are. Thank you for being my teacher. Peace. Love. Namaste. Shalom.